Last night was one of the hardest times of my life. Ive been a strong Christan all my life and last night I gave that up for a second to much.
the whole day i was full of this unknown anger and rage, but i kept it inside until I was lying in my bed around 10:30 last night and I was overcome by evil, I felt jolting in my legs and arms and I knew I was possessed of a demon. The thing is, is that I knew evil was there but still didn't have the desire to get rid of it. I began kicking wholes in my wall and hurting those who tried to stop me. I didn't want to be touched by anyone or anything.
My mom was in my room with me the whole time even though i screamed at her to leave many times. She stayed there casting the demons out again and again. I was shaking and sweating. She put her hands on my legs and wouldn't let me kick. I persisted yelling and jolting at her. Because whatever was inside of me didn't want to have anything to do with God. My body soon began to grow tired and the evil one was dying in the sight of my mothers praying. But it still persisted , an hour passed and i slowing began to hear mom my speaking, she said "Give up" I wanted to, but the darkness i felt was too much.
My physical body grew tired eventually at 12am. I called out to God in the lowest place Ive ever been and said "Take over" It was out of my hands to try to fix everything, I new i needed God more than ever at that point. Tons and Tons of voices were still screaming in my head. I finally decided It was enough, i wasn't powerless anymore. I could change things if i wanted to. I was done flirting with evil. I "Gave up." and Let God control me.
I was still angry but I was under His control at that point, not the devils. after waking up this morning the devil made me feel guilty about the whole thing. how could I let satan take over!? I gave him too much power and that wasn't ok. I began to call out to God for forgiveness and to cleanse me completely. I wont ever let something like that happen again, Because I now know that I have power with God. And he always takes me back.I thank God for saving me. God Wins every time.
My mom was in my room with me the whole time even though i screamed at her to leave many times. She stayed there casting the demons out again and again. I was shaking and sweating. She put her hands on my legs and wouldn't let me kick. I persisted yelling and jolting at her. Because whatever was inside of me didn't want to have anything to do with God. My body soon began to grow tired and the evil one was dying in the sight of my mothers praying. But it still persisted , an hour passed and i slowing began to hear mom my speaking, she said "Give up" I wanted to, but the darkness i felt was too much.
My physical body grew tired eventually at 12am. I called out to God in the lowest place Ive ever been and said "Take over" It was out of my hands to try to fix everything, I new i needed God more than ever at that point. Tons and Tons of voices were still screaming in my head. I finally decided It was enough, i wasn't powerless anymore. I could change things if i wanted to. I was done flirting with evil. I "Gave up." and Let God control me.
I was still angry but I was under His control at that point, not the devils. after waking up this morning the devil made me feel guilty about the whole thing. how could I let satan take over!? I gave him too much power and that wasn't ok. I began to call out to God for forgiveness and to cleanse me completely. I wont ever let something like that happen again, Because I now know that I have power with God. And he always takes me back.I thank God for saving me. God Wins every time.
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